Bowie is so good.  theres been far too much to think about lately, i usually live in my head which sometimes makes things complicated, but its been about 2 weeks since its caused any serious problems. i kind of dont care if the summer comes.  it will make my head hurt and then my eyes will always squint and ill complain a lot, so i dont care if summer passes us by.  Ive been coming up with a lot of movie ideas lately, but i dont think they'll ever exist outside of my head.  they are bad movies that i think only i might enjoy. i want nunchucks, even though im not good at them, they are a status symbol. might go for a walk, get lost a little. i cant get lost, ive got a great brain and a gps.  but but but, i might just go out to a corner and relax for awhile, ya dig?  PEACE OUT! oh yea, almost finished writing the new bloody blood blood, its about a secret war between ninjas and chupacabras.

last night i had a dream, it woke me up and i ran to the bathroom to vomit. it all made sense.

In the future I will measure all pain to this.

sometimes youre the cabin in the woods and other times youre the god that destroys us all.  i hate it when i hang out with people during the day because then my nights are terrible and lonely.  ive wondered about finding a bridge to live under. i think i could be an excellent troll.  i think thats the next step, isnt it?  when we see our faults and let them be.  is it better to accept yourself as you are or try to fruitlessly change yourself.  thats not really a question.  i dont really like reading the news but i do it because im getting older and i should know whats happening in the world, its a sort of obligatory skim through.  I dont know how much longer i can play acoustic, theres too much electricity and too little hip movement.  why does being right feel bad, no, not an original thought, but its still confusing. if i tried to remember really hard would my nose bleed? that happens in the movies and sometimes ive stood in the front of the mirror and tried but my nose didn't bleed but i did make a couple new faces to use when reacting to things. ive got laundry to do, actually i did some but then i didnt take it out.  eh, i dont like it when tv tries to do serious things.  i like episodic things where things from the past and future dont really matter, or at least some things do and some dont.  thats how i want my life.  i can never remember which is the blue pill and which is the red, but why did he have to take one? what would have happened if he just didnt choose, or maybe he couldnt swallow pills.

I now understand, I am Zander.  When I met my Buffy I should have told her right from the start, I should have looked her in the eyes and sang "You are my fire, my one desire, believe when i say, I want it that way." guess now ill just have to wait for Anya.  just hopes shes not a demon.

counting the ways you drive me crazy, the britney spears way. its like water torture, slowly driving me insane.

please dont go ill eat you up i love you so. i liked the where the wild things are movie.  i thought it was great. slow, but great. i want to ride a rhinoceros but im not sure that i could stay on. i would also like to  go sledding down a hill of peanut butter.  that could be great, although i would need to wear like a bread suit. awhile ago i had this strange dream where everyone i knew was speaking in french accents, and the thing is, i can't even do a good french accent. all i knew is that in my dream i had a great french accent. anyway, ive been real tired lately, so i think that i will be going to bed earlier.  but whenever i try i get sidetracked by everything.  oh, today was valentines day.  it was ok.  i guess, kind of just the same as any other day, but i got more chocolate than usual. but i dont really eat much chocolate, so....yea.  dont really know. GUITAR TIME! oh, new homewrecker is more than half finished.