im real tired today, my body hurts. like i felt down some stairs, or off a building. but thats a different story.  i was trying to write some stuff today but i couldnt think of anything, well, not anything i really wanted to write about.  every day around 2 i notice that my face gets warm and i feel cold.  i think either my class has been getting too cold or i might just have a strange disease.  either way when i die make sure that my ashes are made into a tea and drank by my closest friends.  you may add other things to the ashes to make it taste better.  last night i had a bunch of strange dreams that almost always ended in mandu jumping on me.  i think i was moving a lot, because she seemed upset.  i got to sleep around 6 and then i woke up at 8.  not terrible but not altogether great either.  i want to take sleeping pills but im not sure how they work and if it would make me sleep for 8 hours.  also, im not really positive that they aren't just psychosomatic.  but tonight i need to sleep.  im super exhausted, but i really want to watch the Karate Kid.  sometimes there aren't enough hours in the day.  i don't really know how to act today, i think i did something wrong, at least i made someone upset, but i dont know what to do.  so i will probably think about that a lot tonight whilst watching Ralph Maccio perfect the crane kick.  now i also want to watch sidekicks.  sometimes theres too many pictures and the pictures get lost in pictures and the dialogues become a mess but i can still pick them out and i get headaches but its not completely unwanted, and i don't understand how people can't see the connections i see.  i might make flan. i will probably make either flan rice pudding or horchata tonight.  thats gonna happen.  but i hate doing dishes, but they are already dirty. ack!-Cathy